A few thougts on the last 7 years...

[Listening to: The Silent Groove - Inside My Mind from the album "One To Give"]

As the clock winds down on my teenage years, I figured I'd take this time to reflect on the last 7 years of my life. I've been told a countless number of times that my teenage years would be my best years. The following is for those who told me that:



My teenage years were probably the worst years for me because I've spent those years trying to pick my self-esteem and self-worth up off the floor, dust it off and get it to flourish like it once did. I haven't gotten there completely, but I'm almost there. I've been told that those were the years where you find yourself. Guess what? You never stop finding yourself as long as you're alive. There is so much in all of us that we can discover, and it takes longer than your teenage years to find them. My mother is XX years old (like I'm gonna tell you how old she is, she'd freakin' kill me!) and she's still learning about herself and what she's capable of doing. I could go on about what people have told me about the teenage years, but at this point it's pretty pointless. In short, all I've heard about the teenage years has been total BS when it comes to me. All that I hope is that everyone else's teenage years turn out better than mine.

With what I said, it may seem that my teenage years absolutely sucked. That's not entirely true. With what I've learned from these last 7 years I can look toward this new chapter in my life knowing that I'm worth more than I've given myself credit for. That I've been blessed with abilities and talents that can get me as far as my imagination and drive can take me. That I've been blessed with a great family who have my back no matter what. That my mother can be a good friend as long as I stop being a hardass. That I have friends that will deal with my crap because we all have one thing in common: we're all crazy as fuck! To all the friends I've made in these years (as well as before these years), Thank you. Thank you so much for making my teenage years not suck ass and being tight with me. My wish is that the friendships we have forged may continue till we're all old and gray and God willing even longer.

So in short, the teenage years were alright, but these next years are going to be a lot more promising than these last seven years. The real world is ahead of me, and I don't know about anyone else, but I'm pretty psyched about it. If there is any quote I can use to sum up my teenage years, it's this:

"Why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves back up."
-Thomas Wayne, Batman Begins

I'm not sure if any of this made sense to anybody, but I figured since this is going to be the last entry before I turn 20, I'd get some things off my chest so I can take a deep breath and prepare for this new chapter in my life. Peace to all, until then....